Oregon Bound

Well, I finally have a bit of time.

I'm freaking out a bit...

On Monday I was the Happiest I've been in a long time. Because I got a call from OSU saying that they want me to intern at their hospital!! I said... YES obviously... LOL. This happiness lasted me a good portion through the week. But... This means in 3 weeks I'll be on my way to Oregon. As long as I pass my classes and CPE.

That brings me to the freaking out. I have done really well in everything so far but I'm worried that because I am starting to pack and make definite plans that something will go wrong. Like me not passing classes or the CPE for that matter. Any way... I have been slacking this weekend and need to get rolling on studying for all my tests and CPE's. Only a Few short weeks left... Hopefully I'll pull through.

I can't wait to be with Kody again... It has been too long..

Where I am Meant To Be

I'm ready to give up on having any friends other than Kody. I cannot wait to be in Oregon.

Why is it that I drop everything to help out my friends and then end up getting shafted in the end?

I'm sorry but to me when someone helps you get out of an abusive and controlling relationship you don't run back to that controlling person. I feel highly insulted. Why should I have even gone through the trouble of helping if it was all going to happen again.

I love helping my friends out if they need helping but why can't anyone seem to be there when I need it? (Except my Mom and Kody of course).

Soon I will be where I am meant to be... I cannot wait for that.