Here's the Breaking Point

Sometimes, you reach a breaking point.

Well, I'm there.

Can anyone tell me why I am always so hated? I try really hard to make my friends feel loved and appreciated and try to help them out. But somehow it always gets thrown back in my face and I am called horrible things.

I'm tired of it. I try to be so nice to others and do unto them as I would have done to me.

Now I'm not saying that I haven't done or said awful things to people in the past. I have. And I have tried my best to make up for those things and apologize to those people. But to no avail. And that is my fault. I could've thought things through and not done and said those things.

But the gossip and judgement I find myself amongst is making me insane. I am tired to the way everyone looks being the hot topic. I mean I do try to look my best. I'm no gorgeous model or anything. But why does it matter that much. And why is it so important that we put people down to make ourselves feel better.

I try to get the best grades I can. When I don't I admit I get disappointed. But I am not overjoyed when I get a better grade then someone else. Whether or not that person and I get along. I'm sorry for those who have trouble and don't pass. It sucks. I kick myself anytime I don't do what I know I am capable of. I'm sure those people do too.

In short, I just want the craziness to stop. Lets try loving each other. Lets try not caring how well everyone did with school and just worry about you and how you did. I don't throw it in people's faces when I do super great. For they may not have done as great.

I'm just done. I can't handle any more negativity. I need to think more positively and the negative people keep bringing me down.